Nak tu ada, tp......

I just hope everything goes according to plan.

Having to be in a deep dilemma for such a long time had made me ponder about my future.

And I just hope that I can change to become a better person

- Less gossip

- Less playing around

- Less vulgar words in conversation

- More respect towards people

And dear friends, especially my classmates, please guide me. Really, do guide me. I need guidance and inspiration. Right now, I'm just lack of motivation. Hope by the end of the week, I can gain my confidence back. Hopefully. 

Betul ke ?

Sometimes, in life, you can act as if nothing had happen. Or maybe just pura-pura buat tak tahu. But does anyone even cares what you're feeling ? Do the feeling of sympathy and empathy really do exist ? Or is it just a matter of words that people use just to 'show' that they 'truly' feel what others are feeling ? Well, nevermind la bout this. I'm just talking crap because I'm not in the mood to do any work. Anyway, what I really like to share here is my opinion on things that are related to Truth and Emotion ? hah ? tetibe plak ToK ni kenape ?

What triggers me to write this post was actually because of a statement given by a friend of mine. Truthfully, I was really shock when I heard the statement. He said : 'Ala, ko ok la. Nampak happy je sepanjang kt sini. X pernah stress pun aku tengok. Keje pun semua siap je on time walaupun buat last minute. Ko ok je kan kat sini. Selalu gembira je. Gelak sana-sini. Aku rasa ko mesti ok je kan dengan IB ni '. Ok. So thats the statement.  So what it has to do with this post ? Well, I once read in facebook timeline which another friend of mine post. it says "sebenarnya, orang yang selalu gembira and gelak banyak2 is actually the person yang paling banyak masalah and cuba untuk menyembunyikan the stress and problem'. So, see any relations here ?

Actually, this what I wanted to say to my friend, but I couldnt say it cause I dont know how to put it in words at that time. My feeling ? Sad, anger, frustrated, 'koya', and many more which are undescribeable (betul ke eja ni ?). To all who read this post, I just wanna say that I'm not that happy as what people might think and perceive. Yes, maybe di luar nmpk mcm happy-go-lucky, gembira, buat lawak sana sini, gelak x tentu pasal but again, I'm still stressed out with loads of assignments and works needed to be done. So, eventhough I may look that 'happy' , my feelings are still unstable. I guess its normal to have this feeling when ur a living organism called Homosapien. Again, life is like a wheel. Sometimes ur at the top and sometimes ur at the bottom. So please friends or even anyone, dont simply judge a person feeling or emotion just by looking at the outside, but instead, try to ask that person, are u OK ? do you need someone to talk to ?

Again, I would to say that this is just my opinion. So, u judge :)  Thats all for now. tq for reading this crap-emo-type of post. Salam ~

The Not-So-Semester-Break Holiday

So here's my holiday activity. Its not called a holiday actually since I really had no time to spend some leisure activity to myself.

First week : Biro-Tatanegara Course at Bukit Sagu, Kuantan, Pahang (loads of politics issues)

Second week : Humanitarian Project at Acheh with Fish 4 Life 5.0 (fun and tiring)

Third + Fourth week : Aftermath of visit to Acheh (For the whole of two weeks, I had to endure pure pain : Diarrhea, Stomach Cramp and High Fever)

Fifth week : Hospitalized and had to be in ward for a week (Cant do anything. Lying in the bed everyday and being tested with every hospital tests. Ouch !)

Last week : Recovery mode and rest

And there you have it. My not-so-called-holiday experience. I just wish that the holiday would last longer. huhu

@)!!

Spending the last day of 2011 with nothing to do while there's tonnes of homework jam-packed in my bag, I've decided to experiment on something that have been in my computer but have never been used before. Its called the 'Windows Movie Maker'. haha. So, enjoy. Just so you know, this is my first movie that I've made. So it may be a bit boring, or maybe too average. But hey, this is a learning process rite. Adios~

Sometimes

Sometimes there are those pictures which cant be describe by words. So, u judge and make perception for ur ownself :)

Keon and Hafeez. Lovebirds ? More of like cats and dogs. haha

This is what we do when its hafazan time.

Chem remedial  (I)

Chem Remedial (II)

*btw, dats my super duper cool penpal

Of Joy and Happiness

Yus

Yus, Me, Khairul and Hafiz

I cant imagine how Khairul manage to survive his head

See those pictures up there ? well, thats how i describe human being specifically boys being in the state of joy and happiness. haha. well, it does feels great when its your first time being in an suite in a hotel at Acheh.

Actually, the purpose of me writing this is to say that I had a splendid time with my peers in Fish 4 Life 5.0 . Never had thought that u guys were superly duperly amazing and fun to hang out with. haha. neverthelss, I had the best roommates in Acheh. They're fun and goofy i would say. so hey, thanks alif, khairul sabrin, hafiz and yus for being my roommates. hahaha. thats all for now :)and all the other Fish 4 Life members which made my week in Acheh a truly spectacular experience : Farzana, Hannis, Hanis Faiqah, Khairun,Syafimas, Muna, Niki, Helen, Aliah, Emilia, Lele, Ammar, Ashman, Jet and also the advisor, Ms Fadzlinda, Sir Fadzlanor and Ms Raeida.

Some of the members

Patriotic much

For the past few weeks I've rarely update my blog due to a busy schedule ahead and also lots of stuff to be done. well, its called the semester holidays but its actually not. especially when your doing IB and in the mid between the 3rd sem and the 4th sem of course. there's tonnes of assignments. EE,IA, TOK, world lit bla3 and all that stuff. I'm just hoping that i could finish all of that in one week and enjoy another 2 weeks for me to indulge the 'pleasure' of a so-called holiday. I've spent a week doing BTN and another week doing a humanitarian project in Acheh in which I enjoyed it pretty much and would consider it as one of my holidays activities.

okay, back to the main story. BTN. what does BTN stands for ? Well, its Biro Tata Negara (btol kan ?). anyway, I've went to BTN before when i was in form 5 and again, I had to attend this course again this year. although the name is still the same but the program was a lil bit different. maybe its based on our education status and also age I guess. the one that i attended from 28 Nov to 2 Dec was held at Bukit Sagu somewhere in Kuantan. the place is quite condusive i would say. each room can only be occupy by 3 people and the toilets were pure awesomeness. clean and the water supply were super fast. i mean, SUPER fast. laju gila. the foods were scrumptious and delicious especially when they served the renown ikan patin masak lemak cili api with budu and ulam. supper yummy :0)

at first i thought that this program was about the government trying to 'basuh' our minds to vote and support the government. but my guess was wrong. the course's theme way kenegaraan and I had to admit, they really hold on to the theme. I would say that this course was kinda a fun experience for me since I gain new knowledge especially when it comes to politics. seriusly, before this, I had zero knowledge on what dewan besar, dewan rakyat, KERUSI and all those stuff was about. and apart from that too, I've gain new friends. friends which i have never spoken to in KMB finally became the one who i talked the most. hahaha.

so, I would like to say, never judge a book by its cover. seriusly. NEVER. coz u never know what lies ahead. hehe. here are some pics which i managed to snap around the campsite and yea, we went mount climbing and my god, the view were spectacular. praise to God for the beautiful and marvellous creation

*please note that i'm in the process of learning, so please abaikan my grammatical mistakes