Friday, October 19, 2012

That Dream

Assalamualaikum. First and foremost, sorry for not updating this blog for such a long time. Nak kata busy, x jugak sbab cuti after IB duduk rumah je. Hehe. Anyway, Alhamdulillah. Syukur kepada Allah kerana akhirnya, berjaya jugak melanjutkan pelajaran in tertiary level degree. Specifically in Medicine. yup, medicine folks. not an easy task i would say. but hey, cabaran tu tetap cabaran. aslkan niat and minat tu ade and betul, insyaallah everything will go according to plan.

Alhamdulillah and syukur sgt2 lg skali kerana berjaya juga menjejakkan kaki di bumi Ireland ni setelah bertahun2 asyik terbayang nk study oversea. anyways, i will soon post a new entry regarding my 3 weeks living here in Dublin. terlalu byk utk diceritakan. but now, busy with card signing which is due next week and mid sem exam which a week after that. so maybe next month la update lg. hehe. anyways, here are some pics which i managed to snap here in Dublin. Enjoy !
Cinderella at St Stephen street

Cinderella's Horse

At St. Stephens Park. Exactly in front of RCSI

RCSI main entrance

RCSI front building. Xleh masuk, tp boleh kluar. Pelik2

Autumn 
St. Stephens Park (mid section)

Monday, July 16, 2012

Kemajuan

For the past few months slalu je dgr org merungut and merungut and still merungut pasal ktm Komuter yang dikatakan slow and kurang selesa. I have to admit, even aku sendiri pun pernah jugak rasa x puas hati dengan servis komuter ni. Kadang2 delay and kadang2 penuh satu train bila semua masuk jadi mcm tin sardin yang sardinnya diganti dengan spesis bernama manusia.

But, all this negative perception changes bila aku start menggunakan servis komuter sabtu lalu bila nak pergi program JOM!. at first, bila train sampai agak terkejut ah jugak. betul ke aku naik komuter ni ? betul ke aku kt landasan yg nk gi ke Klang ? betul ke ni tren komuter ? surprisingly, it is.Yes, ktm komuter dh ade facelift baru. Tren yang baru. Canggih la jugak. and comfortable. and most importantly, tepati masa (maybe there will be about one or two minutes of delay, tp kejap je) seriously. and the atmosphere inside the coach were totally different from the previous ones.

Actually, tujuan asal tulis post saja2 je nk menceritakan kejakunan diri ini pabila menaiki komuter yang berwajah baru. hehe. ok tu je. selamat menyambut Ramadhan everyone :) and have fun :)

So here are some pics of the new komuter (interior only). xsempt tngkap exterior takut2 terlepas plak tren. hehe



thats all. thank you for reading. haha

Monday, July 9, 2012

Ujian

     Assalamualaikum. Penantian itu satu penyeksaan. Rupa-rupanya betul la ape yang cuba diperkatakan oleh manusia. Mungkin kalimah ini slalu je kita dengar tp x pnah merasainya smpai la satu masa bila kita betul2 merasainya. Ok. Sebenarnya, nk crite pasal result IB exam je. Memang penantian result IB itu merupakan satu penyeksaan. Mengharungi hari demi hari dengan asyik fikir pasal result. Mcm2 persoalan bermain di fikiran. "Betul ke apa aku buat harituh ?", "Kalau x lepas nk buat ape eh ?", "Ish, dh bper markah hilang salah buat soalan nombor 7 paper 1 math", "placebo ? ape ni. x paham la data response ni." and mcm2 lg la. But in the end, smpai jugak masa tarikh yang dinantikan bukan oleh aku shj tp semua student IB around the world.

       6 Julai 2012, 8.00 p.m. . Tarikh keramat. Pada waktu tuh, rasa nk check result berkobar-kobar dalam hati, tp apakan daya. disebabkan jalan raya di Malaysia ni lebih2 lg kt KL sgt 'efficient' dan 'mantap', maka aku pun tersekat dlm traffic jam yang maha lama. tersekat kt MRR2 lebih kurang sejam and jalan tun razak selama 45 minit membuatkan aku terpaksa membatalkan niat buat sementara waktu utk check result. at the same time, sempat la jugak usha twitter and facebook gune fon. terkejut beruk tgk status update rakan2 kmb and tweet2 mereka. hampir kesemuanya melafazkan kalimah Alhamdulillah dan syukur. wahhhh. hebat rakan2ku ini. Alhamdulillah dan syukur mereka semua berjaya melepasi requirement point. sementara meraikan kejayaan rakan2, aku sndiri pun naik cuak. jadi takut. takut2 x lepas point yg diingini. apepun, redha dan tawakkal la mrupakan jalan terbaik skrg. at the same time, dh x sabar2 nk tahu result ni. so, last2 call umah suruh kakak aku tolong checkkan. masa tu pukul 10.30. so bila dh check result tuh, jd speechless. tak tahu nk ckp ape. all i can say is Alhamdulillah and syukur :) 

      Alhamdulillah, stlah 2 tahun berperang dengan makhluk bernama International Baccalaureate, akhirnya berjaya jugak menewaskannya. Penat lelah pagi petang siang malam berperang akhirnya ia berjaya ditewaskan. Beribu-ribu pokok ditebang semata-mata untuk buat first second and final draft ee, tok, IA, world lit, and lab report. Alhamdulillah. Insyaallah, dengan keputusan ini, aku berharap aku mampu memikul tanggungjawab yang diberikan kpd aku. and guess what, this is just the beginning of becoming a doctor. banyak lagi bende nk kene buat. so, brace urself Afar. 

      Also, a friendly reminder to myself and others, JANGANLAH sesekali kufur dengan nikmat yang diberikan. Mungkin ini nikmat dan mungkin juga ujian. jadi, pandai2lah jaga diri anda and sentiasa la mendekatkan diri dengan Allah. Insyaallah, dengan mengingatiNya, kita pun jadi tenang. and remember, for everything that happens, pasti ada hikmahnya. ingt, x semua yg kita fikir baik untuk kita adalah baik and x semua bende yang buruk itu buruk untuk kita. harap2 dengan nikmat yang diberi ni, aku akan lebih mendekatkan lagi diri dengan Allah. and thank you everyone :) teachers, family, friends for unlimited support. 

with that, thank you and assalamualaikum . sekian

Sape2 yg x tahu, inilah rupanya bentuk result IB. Gred subjek dirahsiakan bagi menjaga kemaslahatan manusia sejagat. 
Sekian.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Counting The Days

Hello ! Yes, its finally July. The month filled with events and revelations. Anyway, I have nothing to say. Just counting the days till Ramadhan and at the same time anxiously waiting for Friday, 6th July, for the revelation of the IB Results. Thats right. Malaysian time is around 8 p.m. . Anyway, good luck to everyone and enjoy the rest of the week.

Gulp. Less than 36 hours ?

Emel from Dr. Saai
The holidays were boring, so i've decided to do this. Just for the sake of fun. Haha
Current mood : Nervous

Monday, June 11, 2012

Huruf R

Kenapa huruf R ? R ? Mungkin ramai tertanya-tanya apakah sebenarnya maksud tersirat di sebalik huruf R ini ? Mungkin bagi anda, R bermaksud perkara lain, namun bagi si penulis blog ini, huruf R sememangnya mempunyai maksudnya yang tersendiri. Sebenarnya, apa yang hendak dibicarakan di sini adalah perihal sebuah perasaan yang lahir yang pasti wujud dalam diri semua insan yang bergelar manusia. Ya, R. R = Rindu. Bosan ? Sudah biasa dengan penulisan sebegini ? Teruskan menekan butang klik ke bawah jika anda masih berminat untuk membaca. Jika tidak, sila tekan butang 'X' di atas sana.

Tujuan asal entri ini ditulis adalah untuk memerihalkan perasaan rindu penulis kepada sahabat-sahabat di Kolej Mara Banting. Ya, sudah 2 minggu lebih meninggalkan KMB yang juga sering digelar Kolej Maha Busy yang disebabkan oleh kerja-kerja serta tugasan yang bertimbun-timbun yang tidak kenal masa. Namun, menjadi seorang pelajar International Baccalaureate mengajar kita erti kepayahan dan kegigihan untuk mencapai sesuatu (ayat skema). Sebenarnya, aku merindui suasana di kolej. Bukan kerana kerjanya serta assignment yang banyak, tapi disebabkan aku diberi peluang oleh yang Maha Esa untuk bertemu dengan insan-insan yang sungguh menakjubkan. Pelbagai jenis dan ragam manusia dapat aku jumpa sepanjang perjalanan 2 tahun di KMB ini. Dan antara mereka-mereka, yang paling aku rindu sudah semestinya classmate ku iaitu M10C. Dengan bilangan jantina yang seimbang dalam kelas iaitu 10 gadis dan 10 jejaka, setiap satu daripada mereka ini mempunyai keunikan masing-masing.

Mungkin disebabkan tempoh cuti yang lama serta keadaan diri ini yang tidak mencari kerja part-time membuatkan aku mempunyai banyak masa untuk mengimbas kembali suasana di kolej bermula tahun 2010 hingga 2012. Pengalaman pahit, pengalaman manis, semuanya ada. Tapi pengalaman bersama rakan-rakan kelas tercinta mungkin pengalaman yang paling bermakna.



             Inilah wajah-wajah classmateku yang hebat-hebat belaka. Jujur ku katakan, aku rindu suasana dalam kelas. Dengan kebisingan si Zulaikha yang mulut tak berhenti-berhenti bercakap sehinggalah ke si Hafeez yang suara kalau boleh nak kalahkan Ning Baizura. Setiap seorang daripada mereka ini mempunyai peranan masing-masing. Azizi, ketua kelas Semester 1 sentiasa dengan gaya 'cool'-nya dengan perasaan tidak kisah dengan suasana sekililingnya seringkali membuatkan ahli kelas melabelnya sebagai seorang yang 'comel'. Ros dengan laptopnya dalam kelas melayan video-video youtube ketika cikgu tak masuk kelas lagi. Alif dengan earphone-nya di telinga hampir setiap kali laptop berada di depan matanya. Ain Spawi dengan nasihatnya yang berguna serta menginsafkan. Azrin dengan ketinggiannya yang menimbulkan perasaan cemburu dalam kalangan kami yang pendek-pendek. Faris Sulaiman dengan hilai tawanya yang nyaring setiap kali hatinya geli. Nadiah dengan gayanya yang selamba masuk kelas lambat dengan seribu satu alasan yang muhasabah. Kirin dengan sifat matangnya yang sentiasa memberikan sokongan dan dorongan kepada rakan-rakannya. Farhanis dengan gayanya yang ala-ala manja sentiasa mencuit hati kami dalam kelas. Khirul @ K-Own dengan ideanya yang jumlahnya tidak terkira dan semangatnya dalam mem'persuade' kami untuk makan di KFC ( Bukan Kentucky Fried Chicken tetapi Koperasi Food Court). Nisa dengan nafsu makannya yang serba hebat. Naim dengan sifatnya sebagai pendengar yang baik juga suka menari ketika tiada orang berada di sekitarnya. Oops. Ramlah dengan gayanya yang petite serta manja. Mikhail dengan mata sepetnya yang seringkali keliru samada terjaga atau tertidur. Amirah dengan coki-coki yang sentiasa dimamah selepas waktu rehat. Farzana dengan sifatnya yang terlalu sayangkan classmatenya dan suka mengimbau kenangan-kenangan lama. Zul dengan sifat pendiamnya dalam kelas. Secara amnya, itulah perkara-perkara yang menjadikan pengalaman di KMB sebagai suatu pengalaman yang menarik. 

                 Bersama Teacher Mazlina. Lecturer Chemistry ketika semester 1 dan 2. Gambar ini diambil ketika jamuan perpisahan yang diadakan petang hari terakhir peperiksaan.

                                                    Kenangan terakhir bersama teacher.

          Aktiviti yang dilakukan setiap kali sesi hafazan di Surau. Tidak sah kalau tak tangkap gambar.

Aktiviti kebiasaan di kelas. Tumpas menandakan terlalu banyak study malam-malam untuk capai kejayaan.

           Kaki tidur di kelas. Bukan dia seorang tapi ramai lagi. Namun ini je gambar yang mampu di-snap. Malangnya, Naim menjadi mangsa.

              Diambil 3 minit sebelum kelas Malay. Ya, IB pun belajar Malay ya. Sastera pula tu. Apapun, marilah kita martabatkan bahasa Melayu.

                   Bersama Teacher Hidayah (Lecturer Math) pada hari terakhir IRP Math. Gambar ini gabungan antara M10C dan M10D. Kehidupan berjiran haruslah diamalkan di mana jua kita berada :-)

                  Riadah petang-petang. Volleyball. Sebuah permainan yang menarik tetapi memerlukan tenaga dan teknik-teknik yang tertentu untuk mahir. Apapun, aku rindu nak main volleyball ngan Naim, Zumar, K-Own, Hafeez dan rakan-rakan yang lain.

                Outing terakhir bersama classmate. Mungkin nampak kebudak-budakan tapi apa aku kisah. Janji dapat meluangkan masa dengan rakan-rakan yang bersama aku selama 2 tahun. 

              Kesimpulannya, pernah aku terdengar seorang rakan berkata kepada aku. Katanya, "kita tidak akan merasai kehilangan seseorang itu sehinggalah kita terpisah dengannya".  Mungkin ini perasaan yang aku sedang alami. Rindu. Kadang-kadang ingin juga kembali seperti dahulu kala. Namun, tak sanggup aku untuk mengambil IB lagi. Cukuplah sekadar dua tahun yang penuh dengan kerja dan assignment. Pada masa yang sama, perasaan takut bercampur cuak juga melanda diri ini apabila memikirkan keputusan IB yang bakal dikeluarkan kurang daripada sebulan. Sekian saja. Maaf jika entri ini agak membosankan atau menjadikan anda hilang semangat untuk membaca entri yang seterusnya. Aku hanya mampu untuk meluahkan apa yang bermain-main di fikiran ini. Sekian. Assalamualaikum.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

It's Never Too Late

      I guess the title speaks it all. Its never to late to finally say that I'M FINISHED WITH INTERNATIONAL BACCALAUREATE !!!!! yes. done with the most torturing preparatory program ever. 2 years filled with bittersweet memory. and finally, on the 23rd May 2012, its time to say goodbye to KMB. Nevertheless, being an IB student had taught me a lot. Not just in terms of academic but also in terms of social responsibility and what it means to be a soon-to-be adult. Haha. Anyway, I'll talk about all these stuff later in the next post. I'm sure I have plenty of time to start blogging again since its a 4 month holiday without any homeworks nor assignments. But the most important thing that I'm gonna miss about KMB is the people there. My friends, my colleagues, my classmates, my teachers, my blockmates and everyone la including akak fotostat and makcik koop pagi2. So, below are some of the pics that I managed to snap before leaving KMB. It sure does bring back memories to me. Enjoy !

The room just before clearance
Captured right after the last paper
Dah clearance. Sedih pulak tgk gambar ni
Blok A
Xde bende dah nak letak. This was taken on the last day (23/5/2012)

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Food, Emotion, Love, Hope and everything else

Assalamualaikum. The title says it all. Yes, last week was one hell of a week. A week full of FOODS, EMOTIONS running up and down, LOVE in which can be interpreted in sooo many different ways and everything else which includes goodbyes and academic matter. In conjunction with the upcoming IB exam in May 2012, I would like to write this post fully in english to prepare myself for English B Paper 2. So, do mind that this is a learning process and please dont mock nor criticize my writing. I am still learning.

So here it goes. The first one is FOOD. Last week was probably the last session of IRP for HL subjects and since its the last, its quite emotional. But again, the good part is that we received foods from the teachers from each subjects department. And again, I would like to thank all the teachers for those wonderful, cute and scrumptious foods. Every food is unique in their own way and I do admit, foods that were given by the teachers with a sprinkle of blessing really do taste nice. And even the IRP committee and Koop gave us foods that really challenge my tastebud. English unit gave us cupcakes with our name written on it, Math department gave us little polka dots muffin, Economics unit gave cupcakes with fillings, Biology gave us Nasi Lemak and Chemistry unit gave blueberry cheese tart which were super-duper creamy and nice. Koop gave us Sate and IRP committee gave us Wall’s Cornetto. So there you have it, a list of foods that the year 2 student received for this week. I’m pretty sure most of us gain weight this week. And Malay unit is going give theirs on this upcoming Monday. And not to forget my mentor, Pn Asima, treat us with chicken chop for our last meeting. It was a sad moment actually and I’m truly grateful for having such an awesome mentor. Alhamdulillah for everything. Hope with the blessings, we can do well in our exams. Ameen. So that concludes the FOOD part.

Moving on, next is emotion. Yes, like what we learnt in ToK classes, emotion is one of the ways of knowing. But knowing what ? Well in this case, I would rather say that emotion is a way for you to know yourself better and others. Why am I saying this ? Particularly, since this week was sort of like the last week being in the LT and having IRP sessions with the teachers, I kinda feel sad and nostalgic. Especially when the time for each session ends and the teachers goes in front to give a word or two. It was truly a sad moment for me. Hearing all those advices and their hopes to see all of us finish IB with flying colours really makes me ponder. And apart from that, due to the aftermath of these sad and nostalgic feelings, my emotions suddenly fluctuates. There were times when I feel super duper happy and there were time when I feel super duper down. But most of the time, I feel very frustrated. Why ? Because things were changing really QUICKLY. People change. Even the one closest to you change dramatically and the saddest part is that when you feel that you are left out in a situation. Again, I feel frustrated. In other words, ‘sakit hati’. But thats all I can. I cant say too much.

LOVE. What does love means to you ? For me, love can be defined as a set feelings that you have when you care towards a person. It doesn’t mean that when you love someone, you have to marry them. Again, when I said I love someone, it means I care for them. So basically, I love all of my friends. So what does love have to do with this week ? Actually, I just wanted to say that as IB is coming to an end, that love feeling towards your teachers and friends really had impacted my life. As the end is nearer, I hope that everyone stays the same.

Hopes. Everyone has their hopes and dreams. During the last mentor-mentee session, Mdm Asima did mention her hopes and expectations towards us. She said that “No matter where you are or what you’re results are, just remember that I am always proud of you guys. Make full use of the knowledge and do well in your exam. I really do want to see all of you going up the stage and achieve the high achievers award during graduation day soon. I really do”. Wow. Those are really high hopes. But dont worry teacher, I’ll try my best to achieve it. The same goes to other members of the mentor-mentee. Hafeez,Fasu,Keon,Kirin,Juju,Ram,Ros,Zul. Hope all of us get to be on the stage and make our family and teachers proud. Hopefully. I know we can do it. Insyaallah. Remember, everything is possible when you believe.

Everything else. Nothing. Just busy with revising the subjects and at the same time busy preparing stuffs for my sis wedding. Hopefully everything goes well and smoothly according to plan. I guess that is all for now. Happy reading and enjoy your day.

            Here are some of the pictures of foods that I received which I managed to snap before ravishing them. Haha. Assalamualaikum.

English Department Cupcakes with our name written on it
Math Department cute little polka dots muffins
Koop's Sate
Chem Unit super duper creamy cheese tart
Wishes from Chem teachers
Cheese tart by IRP Committee
Chicken Chop. Treated by our beloved mentor, Mdm Asima
Final message to you, Mentor
Probably the last picture of English IRP Session


 p/s : Just a friendly notice. To the particular person/s, i just wanted to say that I am not mad at you. The reason I was being so untalkative to you was because I wanted to protect myself. Protect myself from feeling things that I shoudnt feel. And for that, I am distancing myself from you and you and you and the list goes on. But i guess you know who you are. I just wanted to say that no matter what, we'll still be friends. But its not the same as it used to be. I'm trying my best to be the 'old' me but this feeling keeps pushing me to become a whole different person when I encounter you and you. So please, dont feel sad or disheartened by my actions. Just focus on ur study and please forget me. There's a reason behind all of these and when the time comes, I tell you and you the whole story. But for the time being, I'm distancing myself so that I can gain inner peace. Remember, things will always be the same, except without me around. Sorry for the inconvenience cause and hope everyone is in the state of happiness. Now you're just somebody that I used to know. I just wish ................


Currently playing = Somebody That I Used To Know (Gotye & Kimbra) and (Glee Version)