A Quarter Way There

Come on fellow year 2 KMB-ians ! We're almost there. Just a few more days and we're free from ToK and EE. Free mcm rama-rama baru keluar kepompong. Yeay. Btw, still stressed out editing my EE and ToK. Whoever said that Malay EE was easy ? Well, they are definitely wrong. Anyway, thats all i wanna say. Cant hardly wait for Wednesday. Then I'll be FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :)

Imagining myself being that butterfly :)

Masih

Perasaan masih terpendam.
Diri masih diam.
Senyuman palsu masih terukir.
Gelak-tawa bohongan masih didengari.
Kata-kata 'manis' masih disebut-sebut.

Hold on there. Kerana Allah masih dan sentiasa bersama anda.
-hoping for a better future

Nak tu ada, tp......

I just hope everything goes according to plan.

Having to be in a deep dilemma for such a long time had made me ponder about my future.

And I just hope that I can change to become a better person

- Less gossip

- Less playing around

- Less vulgar words in conversation

- More respect towards people

And dear friends, especially my classmates, please guide me. Really, do guide me. I need guidance and inspiration. Right now, I'm just lack of motivation. Hope by the end of the week, I can gain my confidence back. Hopefully. 

Betul ke ?

Sometimes, in life, you can act as if nothing had happen. Or maybe just pura-pura buat tak tahu. But does anyone even cares what you're feeling ? Do the feeling of sympathy and empathy really do exist ? Or is it just a matter of words that people use just to 'show' that they 'truly' feel what others are feeling ? Well, nevermind la bout this. I'm just talking crap because I'm not in the mood to do any work. Anyway, what I really like to share here is my opinion on things that are related to Truth and Emotion ? hah ? tetibe plak ToK ni kenape ?

What triggers me to write this post was actually because of a statement given by a friend of mine. Truthfully, I was really shock when I heard the statement. He said : 'Ala, ko ok la. Nampak happy je sepanjang kt sini. X pernah stress pun aku tengok. Keje pun semua siap je on time walaupun buat last minute. Ko ok je kan kat sini. Selalu gembira je. Gelak sana-sini. Aku rasa ko mesti ok je kan dengan IB ni '. Ok. So thats the statement.  So what it has to do with this post ? Well, I once read in facebook timeline which another friend of mine post. it says "sebenarnya, orang yang selalu gembira and gelak banyak2 is actually the person yang paling banyak masalah and cuba untuk menyembunyikan the stress and problem'. So, see any relations here ?

Actually, this what I wanted to say to my friend, but I couldnt say it cause I dont know how to put it in words at that time. My feeling ? Sad, anger, frustrated, 'koya', and many more which are undescribeable (betul ke eja ni ?). To all who read this post, I just wanna say that I'm not that happy as what people might think and perceive. Yes, maybe di luar nmpk mcm happy-go-lucky, gembira, buat lawak sana sini, gelak x tentu pasal but again, I'm still stressed out with loads of assignments and works needed to be done. So, eventhough I may look that 'happy' , my feelings are still unstable. I guess its normal to have this feeling when ur a living organism called Homosapien. Again, life is like a wheel. Sometimes ur at the top and sometimes ur at the bottom. So please friends or even anyone, dont simply judge a person feeling or emotion just by looking at the outside, but instead, try to ask that person, are u OK ? do you need someone to talk to ?

Again, I would to say that this is just my opinion. So, u judge :)  Thats all for now. tq for reading this crap-emo-type of post. Salam ~

The Not-So-Semester-Break Holiday

So here's my holiday activity. Its not called a holiday actually since I really had no time to spend some leisure activity to myself.

First week : Biro-Tatanegara Course at Bukit Sagu, Kuantan, Pahang (loads of politics issues)

Second week : Humanitarian Project at Acheh with Fish 4 Life 5.0 (fun and tiring)

Third + Fourth week : Aftermath of visit to Acheh (For the whole of two weeks, I had to endure pure pain : Diarrhea, Stomach Cramp and High Fever)

Fifth week : Hospitalized and had to be in ward for a week (Cant do anything. Lying in the bed everyday and being tested with every hospital tests. Ouch !)

Last week : Recovery mode and rest

And there you have it. My not-so-called-holiday experience. I just wish that the holiday would last longer. huhu