Sunday, April 22, 2012

Food, Emotion, Love, Hope and everything else

Assalamualaikum. The title says it all. Yes, last week was one hell of a week. A week full of FOODS, EMOTIONS running up and down, LOVE in which can be interpreted in sooo many different ways and everything else which includes goodbyes and academic matter. In conjunction with the upcoming IB exam in May 2012, I would like to write this post fully in english to prepare myself for English B Paper 2. So, do mind that this is a learning process and please dont mock nor criticize my writing. I am still learning.

So here it goes. The first one is FOOD. Last week was probably the last session of IRP for HL subjects and since its the last, its quite emotional. But again, the good part is that we received foods from the teachers from each subjects department. And again, I would like to thank all the teachers for those wonderful, cute and scrumptious foods. Every food is unique in their own way and I do admit, foods that were given by the teachers with a sprinkle of blessing really do taste nice. And even the IRP committee and Koop gave us foods that really challenge my tastebud. English unit gave us cupcakes with our name written on it, Math department gave us little polka dots muffin, Economics unit gave cupcakes with fillings, Biology gave us Nasi Lemak and Chemistry unit gave blueberry cheese tart which were super-duper creamy and nice. Koop gave us Sate and IRP committee gave us Wall’s Cornetto. So there you have it, a list of foods that the year 2 student received for this week. I’m pretty sure most of us gain weight this week. And Malay unit is going give theirs on this upcoming Monday. And not to forget my mentor, Pn Asima, treat us with chicken chop for our last meeting. It was a sad moment actually and I’m truly grateful for having such an awesome mentor. Alhamdulillah for everything. Hope with the blessings, we can do well in our exams. Ameen. So that concludes the FOOD part.

Moving on, next is emotion. Yes, like what we learnt in ToK classes, emotion is one of the ways of knowing. But knowing what ? Well in this case, I would rather say that emotion is a way for you to know yourself better and others. Why am I saying this ? Particularly, since this week was sort of like the last week being in the LT and having IRP sessions with the teachers, I kinda feel sad and nostalgic. Especially when the time for each session ends and the teachers goes in front to give a word or two. It was truly a sad moment for me. Hearing all those advices and their hopes to see all of us finish IB with flying colours really makes me ponder. And apart from that, due to the aftermath of these sad and nostalgic feelings, my emotions suddenly fluctuates. There were times when I feel super duper happy and there were time when I feel super duper down. But most of the time, I feel very frustrated. Why ? Because things were changing really QUICKLY. People change. Even the one closest to you change dramatically and the saddest part is that when you feel that you are left out in a situation. Again, I feel frustrated. In other words, ‘sakit hati’. But thats all I can. I cant say too much.

LOVE. What does love means to you ? For me, love can be defined as a set feelings that you have when you care towards a person. It doesn’t mean that when you love someone, you have to marry them. Again, when I said I love someone, it means I care for them. So basically, I love all of my friends. So what does love have to do with this week ? Actually, I just wanted to say that as IB is coming to an end, that love feeling towards your teachers and friends really had impacted my life. As the end is nearer, I hope that everyone stays the same.

Hopes. Everyone has their hopes and dreams. During the last mentor-mentee session, Mdm Asima did mention her hopes and expectations towards us. She said that “No matter where you are or what you’re results are, just remember that I am always proud of you guys. Make full use of the knowledge and do well in your exam. I really do want to see all of you going up the stage and achieve the high achievers award during graduation day soon. I really do”. Wow. Those are really high hopes. But dont worry teacher, I’ll try my best to achieve it. The same goes to other members of the mentor-mentee. Hafeez,Fasu,Keon,Kirin,Juju,Ram,Ros,Zul. Hope all of us get to be on the stage and make our family and teachers proud. Hopefully. I know we can do it. Insyaallah. Remember, everything is possible when you believe.

Everything else. Nothing. Just busy with revising the subjects and at the same time busy preparing stuffs for my sis wedding. Hopefully everything goes well and smoothly according to plan. I guess that is all for now. Happy reading and enjoy your day.

            Here are some of the pictures of foods that I received which I managed to snap before ravishing them. Haha. Assalamualaikum.

English Department Cupcakes with our name written on it
Math Department cute little polka dots muffins
Koop's Sate
Chem Unit super duper creamy cheese tart
Wishes from Chem teachers
Cheese tart by IRP Committee
Chicken Chop. Treated by our beloved mentor, Mdm Asima
Final message to you, Mentor
Probably the last picture of English IRP Session

 p/s : Just a friendly notice. To the particular person/s, i just wanted to say that I am not mad at you. The reason I was being so untalkative to you was because I wanted to protect myself. Protect myself from feeling things that I shoudnt feel. And for that, I am distancing myself from you and you and you and the list goes on. But i guess you know who you are. I just wanted to say that no matter what, we'll still be friends. But its not the same as it used to be. I'm trying my best to be the 'old' me but this feeling keeps pushing me to become a whole different person when I encounter you and you. So please, dont feel sad or disheartened by my actions. Just focus on ur study and please forget me. There's a reason behind all of these and when the time comes, I tell you and you the whole story. But for the time being, I'm distancing myself so that I can gain inner peace. Remember, things will always be the same, except without me around. Sorry for the inconvenience cause and hope everyone is in the state of happiness. Now you're just somebody that I used to know. I just wish ................

Currently playing = Somebody That I Used To Know (Gotye & Kimbra) and (Glee Version)

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